I wasn’t planning on blogging today. I honestly haven’t been “feeling it.” Blogging has become a chore. Trying to crank out spectacular blog posts so that you get more page views. So that your sponsors get more clicks. Reading blogs. Commenting. Then for me, designing and other odds and ends on other blogs. It eats away at your time. It’s an unforgiving chore.
But sometimes the best thing about blogging is the writing. Writing to get your thoughts on…well, not paper, but you know what I mean. Writing as a cathartic release of everything you’ve been holding inside.
There’s something comforting about extracting your thoughts. I guess the goal is to keep them out once they’re out.
Do you ever have inexplicable bursts of sadness? Last night that’s all I felt. Overwhelming sadness. And an ugly cry that would rival Kim Kardashian’s ugly cry.
Sometimes I feel like a failure.
Sometimes I feel like I can’t please everyone, and as a people-pleaser it just kills me.
Sometimes I feel immature despite having been “mature for my age” all throughout childhood.
Sometimes I feel like hitting a reset button on life. Multiple times a day.
Why don’t we have all the answers?
When bad things happen that are out of our control, why is it so hard to fix them?
Why is it so hard for people to just be happy with what they have?
Why get stuck on the stupid shit?
Why is it so hard for people to forgive?
I guess I didn’t mean for this post to be so existential, but sometimes these are the thoughts that run through my head. I’m not the type of person to say these questions aloud out of fear that someone will read between the lines and ask me, “What’s wrong, Lisette?” It’s hard for me to talk about my feelings. But writing about them? Easy.
I guess I have to get back to the basics of what makes Lisette happy.
Jessa O says
I was talking about this to my hubs about this yesterday. I have been feeling just blah about things lately too.
Tori G says
Hey there! I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes you just need to take a step back, relax, and take a deep breath and realize that everything is going to be ok!
Lisette says
Thanks Tori.
Sarah Alway says
I totally feel you on this post. I’ve been feeling extremely blah and burned out with blogging lately, too. And honestly sometimes life feels like a chore lately. I think I’m just having an end of summer let down or something. Don’t worry girl, this too shall pass!
Kate says
A lot of times when I’m feeling down, I’ll write it all down, go to bed and then reread it in the morning. Usually I crumple the page in a ball and throw it away, but writing helps! Hope you start feeling like yourself soon.
Kelsey says
So sorry you are feeling this way! Never force yourself to do a hobby. If you feel like you need to relax and get back to you do it! love you!
Lisette says
Thanks dear! I’m definitely taking time this weekend to relax and “detox.” xoxo
Diane says
So glad you shared how you are feeling. I get this way sometimes too for no good reason. And I agree sometimes it helps to write it out. Hope your mood lifts soon!
Carica says
Yes! I had these feelings last week. I picked up the computer and began to write, too. I felt better afterwards, but not 100%. You nailed it in your conclusion, “I guess I have to get back to the basics of what makes Lisette happy.”
Rachael @ Pretty in Pink says
Hang in there… we’ve all been there. And remember this blogging community is here to support each other no matter what!
Sarah says
I know how you feel darling, I’ve been having a week like this post it would seem. School has just been overwhelming this week and I simple just don’t want to care any more! It sure does help to just get it all off your chest!
xx
Kristin Schouten says
Oh Lisette, you are not the only one. I know exactly how you feel. Try to keep your head up and know that your blogging family is here for you. You are an amazing blogger and you have done amazing posts. Even when you don’t feel like it you may have just helped somebody in need. Thank you so much for all you do, you are an inspiration to me.
Lisette says
Thank YOU Kristin! I’m touched!
Miriam says
It’s eerie how you feel the exact same way I did the last few days! Wow. Is it the weather or something?
Yesterday I was so down I wanted to cry, and I’m not even PMSing. I guess it’s life? Sometimes it can get too much. This funk will lift for you, I promise! Know that you’re not alone, we all feel like that sometimes – and judging from all the comments here, a lot of us have been feeling like that right now.
About the whole blogging thing: I have seen 3 bloggers quit/take breaks in the last couple of weeks alone. It seems to me the bigger a blog gets, the less it is about the pleasure of writing, and the more it is about sponsors, numbers, pressure… It must be difficult to find a balance.
But you know what? You’re the boss of your blog, and if you want to change it to release some of the pressure, I’m sure you can!
Don’t give up Lisette!
Lisette says
Thanks, Miriam!
I don’t think it has anything to do with blog size. It’s just…life. There are definite ups and downs.
Thanks for your encouragement!
Niki says
It makes me sad to read this, because you have such a light to you (even over the internet / phone). I’m sorry you’ve been feeling down, and I can completely relate. If you ever need to talk, I’m here. I hope things are ok.
Lisette says
Thanks love!
jackie says
i definitely get in funks where i feel like blogging is a chore too. also, lately, i’ve been stress, depressed,anxious, whatever you want to call it with some life changes going on as well. sometimes you need a good ugly cry and to wallow for a bit in order to prepare yourself to either get back to the grind or make some changes. good luck with everything!
Lisette says
You are so right, my friend. We all need a good ugly cry from time to time. Keeps us humble ;)
Amber says
I can’t even begin to tell you how often I feel these things. It’s tough, but you do have to find what makes you happy! After all, that’s what’s most important! xo
Jane says
Sometimes you just need a good cry. Lots of hugs!
Lisa @ Two Martinis says
I’m so sorry to hear you’re feeling down! I go through periods of just feeling bleh about everything in life… I’m sure everyone does! Tomorrow’s a new day with endless possibilities, so I’m sending positive thoughts your way!
Lisette says
Thanks for the positive thoughts, Lisa! Much appreciated :)
joannerambling says
Guess what there are days when I think my life sucks and I wonder why I can’t just redo the day and do things different, it happens to all of us and those who say differently are lying cows, just saying……………………..all we can do is have a hot bath a cold drink maybe to alcohol and good nights sleep and hope that in the morning things will look different and if that fails crap a gun and hunt down all the zombies that are sucking the life out of you and then have a hot bath a drink and bed and hope for the best…………….
Kenya says
Ugh, I also wish I can press the reset button!!!!
Rachel says
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I’m here if you ever want to vent… and I can totally relate to how you’re feeling. This too shall pass! :)
Lisette says
Thanks…I like venting :)
Lauren (@pinkonthecheek) says
yes to all of this. this week i thought about putting down POTC for awhile. its so exhausting and while I am looking for a job, I keep thinking in my head…you are letting your blog down.
I am right there with you and you can always text me and we can send pics of us ugly crying….it will be epic.
Lisette says
That would be epic. Haha. Thanks for stopping by! We just sometimes have to take a step away from our blogs and breathe.
Mahdi M says
I think a lot of people feel that way when they turn something they love into a job. I clean houses for a living, and help my handicapped mother. It’s all very hard, but when I get to play music (which I wouldn’t care if I never made a dime) I get to release all that energy. If I turned that into a job, I’m not sure what would make me happy anymore!
Amanda says
If I could write my own list of questions going on in my head right now it would be identical to that list up there. Its comforting to know that it is “normal” and will pass. I think acknowledging it puts you a step in the right direction! Loved reading this post and I hope you have a relaxing weekend!
Ange says
Does making freebies make Lisette happy? Because they make Ange happy ;) <3
Carole says
Lisette – we all go through blah patches – I manage mine by pre-scheduling posts so if I don’t feel like doing much I can skip a few days without it being a problem. Hope you feel back to your old self soon. Good luck.
Holly H says
I think that when it becomes a chore, then it’s time to take a break. Life is too short to continuously do things that are “chores.” We all do enough of that as it is :-)
Carla says
Hi Lisette! I’m a very new blogger, and I’ve been loving the blogoshere so far. I have to be honest that this is something that I worried about when I made the decision to start blogging seriously. I am one of those that get inexplicably blue. Like you, I also feel like hitting the reset button on my life. Thanks for sharing your personal thoughts! :)
Carla @ Love Cartista
Starr says
We’ve all been there! It’s actually funny because I just wrote about getting out of my funk on my blog! I think we all go through times where things just aren’t going right or things feel icky, but it’s good to know that we’re not alone. We’re all entitled to have a bad day once and awhile. Just breathe and remember that you’re doing the best that you can! As my mom always says, “this too shall pass”.